Wednesday, May 19, 2010

My home &...my home...

My aunt is in this week helping me organize my house. I am absolutely grateful for it, too! I am horrible at this kind of thing, and she is great! I have to admit I am a bit overwhelmed worrying if we will have enough time to get it done (I know you are all thinking, be thankful for what she can do and do the rest yourself! That's just not how I roll LOL). But, things are already looking up, can't wait to have it done, and PRAYING to sweet Jesus above that I can keep it in order and that my hubby & kids are able to also help keep it up! A family of 6 with only 3 bedrooms, surely the Lord has a reason for this! Haha

On a totally different note, there are a couple of Caring Bridge sites I keep up with, and I'm sure I've blogged about it before. I am torn between not reading them, because it absolutely breaks my heart, and I think I don't even need to read this, but then I do want to know how they are and what to specifically pray for, so I continue. There are SO many awful things in this world, and it's especially sad when it involves an innocent child. I just can't imagine one of my 3 (soon to be 4) children having to battle for their life as I sit there helplessly watching. It kills me just to consider the possibility...it hurts. I want to take the pain away for those families suffering through it, but I can't. There are times when I start to doubt, and even cry out to the Lord, "Why must these sweet,beautiful,innocent children suffer? WHYYYYYY, LORD?" But, then I have to spend time in prayer and realize that this world isn't our home, it's not perfect here, it's full of evil, sickness, and sadness. It's full of hurt, worries, and troubles. But, if we put our trust and hope in HIM, one day we WILL be in a world void of all that negative stuff. We will never watch a child, or anyone, suffer ever again. Thank You, Lord, that this Earth is NOT our permanent home. Thank you for your promises of Heaven. When I remind myself of this, it's not any easier to hear the sad stories, but it does give me peace knowing what the future hold for those who believe.

So for now, I am off to get ready for my aunt to arrive for the day, so we can get busy (on top of having a sick baby home from school, well, he's 9, but he's still my baby). It's only 9am and I've already been emotional and deep this morning, how's that for starting off your day?!

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