I am just missing them today and need to let it out a little.
This blog is supposed to be a happy blog, so this isn't about being down, just about celebrating the good times...

I miss my G-Ma, I haven't got to sit by her bedside and rub her sweet head in over a year and half...
I miss being in her room and having smalltalk. I miss her wanting us to go get her cigarettes (as much as I detest those) and insisted on us using a coupon.
I miss all those card tables being set up in her home, for the Bridge Club and hearing all the change jingle, and seeing the joy those ladies got from being together.
I miss seeing her lay out in the back yard, or at Roma & Stanley's, even in her later days, and turn golden brown so easily (why didn't I inherit that trait?).
I miss the way she was always so thoughtful and with her, I knew I had someone on my side.


I also miss my Mamaw.
It has only been about seven months since she went Home.
I miss family dinners at her house, no one in this world could cook like she could. The movie, Soul Food, reminds of her (of course, the white version, but still :-)
She brought people together with her food.
I miss our lunch dates out...and how I long for one.
I miss being around her and my great aunts, seeing how happy they were together, praying that one day that will be me.
I miss the way she was so forgiving.

My heart aches for them both. Memories of them are still so fresh...they're like built in photographs in my mind. I pray those memories stay with me, and that they do not fade over time. I pray for the rest of my family that misses them, as well. I hope that we are daily reminded they are with their true Father, and happier than they ever could have imagined to be on this Earth. They deserve that happiness, they deserve that joy. So, while I am sad for me, I am happy for them.
I am grateful that our Father is so gracious, and knows just what he is doing.
He truly is Amazing...he is everything good, and nothing bad...I stand in awe.

I love you G-ma...I love you Mamaw...