This past week, someone said something that offended me. I know, shocker, right? The thing is, people rarely say stuff that is offensive to me (well, at least that is directed towards me), and in the rare instance that it happens, I'm the type that knows my blessed lot in this life and can pretty easily just ignore it. However, I have this thing going on that adds fuel to my fire...pregnancy hormones. Yea, those.

Anyway, I can honestly say I don't think it would have really bothered me if I wasn't so emotional right now. But, I am, and it did, and I was really upset. Really ticked. As a Christian, I knew I should just pray for the person (and I did) and move on. But, as a hormonal woman, I didn't do so well with that. I thought of several incredibly tacky (yet very true) things to say to this person. As I thought about what I would say, I could feel myself grow with pride thinking, "Ha! That will shut her up for sure"! Then, a feeling of guilt would wash over me, ashamed that I was even thinking of saying those things. I would do dishes, and find myself thinking of something to say back, then realize God doesn't want me thinking, feeling, or acting this way, and I'd move on. Then, I'd be doing laundry, surfing the net, driving to pick up the kids, whatever...and the same thing would happen. It happened several times yesterday, and even once this morning. The tacky thoughts just kept coming back. I knew better than to actually say them, but it's like I couldn't stop myself from thinking it. I thought to myself, "Is the Lord upset with me? He can't be upset with me. I mean, I didn't actually say any of it, and there wasn't any profanity involved with what I wanted to say, and hey, it was even all true stuff, I wasn't making any of it up."

But I know that an offense made in the heart, is an offense all the same.

And, even though that person did say something "not nice", I know they are not where I am in my walk with the Lord (not that I don't have a long way to go), I know they were probably just venting out of frustration with their own life. I'm really ashamed I didn't do MORE praying, and less negative thinking. But, I'm going to take it as a personal lesson from the Lord. Yet another area my life needs molding by Him. Lord, help me to grow and please you in this area of my life.

My life has been a true roller coaster lately (insert pregnancy hormones, yet again) and I'm incredibly thankful I have Him to cling to...